its all just a merry-go-round

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Ecclesiastes 7 :10
Do not say, “ Why were the former days better than these? ”
For you do not inquire wisely concerning this.

Ecclesiastes 7 :13-14
Consider the work of God;
For who can make straight what He has made crooked?
In the day of prosperity be joyful,
But in the day of adversity consider:
Surely God has appointed the one as well as the other,
So that man can find out nothing that will come after him.

well i guess we all just have to learn eh? hmm.. "learn from others mistakes so you dont have to suffer yourself" they always say.. but i guess some things just cant be learnt from others. its part and parcel of growing up. and nope i dont blame anyone. i hate ppl who blame others.. well whatever it is. we all just come out stronger and hopefully. closer to HIM.. hmmm.. i've been thinking.. have i really grown closer to HIM? or have i just been dis-illusioning myself again. sometimes i think tt i'm closer or i want to think tt i'm closer and i'll just leave it as tt.. but can i relly just do tt? i mean ultimately its not about how ppl see me. its how HE sees me. even if ppl think i'm a holy joe and tt i'm being overly retarded just cause i cant stand vulgarities.. but in my heart am i really tt holy? i really dont think so. hmm..even when i was studying during the O's i still thought i was okay in my faith.. but the recent spate of events has really got me thinking. and i really need to do sth. FAST. before i even try to reach out.. so what IF my friends think i'm a good example of a christian? does tt matter much to HIM? life's full of what if's and maybe's... t.chung said tt we must apply what we learnt at family camp. by first denying yourself. but what is my 1st step? MAN.. okay i better find someone to talk to.. maybe when kenneth's free..

i guess it all comes down to where your heart is.
its there your thoughts and feelings all begin.
and if you never give your heart to Jesus,
you'll never really have a part with Him..

scrawled at 3/30/2006 09:45:00 PM

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

again i said sth wrong.. haiz..

"haiz" so aH bEnGZXxXXXX arr... man.. hmm the plan for tml..
after schl.. take my time to go down to church for the funeral.. stay on do a lil work the hopefully we can start practicing..

the new computer is just so very boring.. okay not really.. but theres just no music and photos to look at.. man.. concert's coming up soon!! and easter lunch! wow...

scrawled at 3/28/2006 10:02:00 PM

and then i'll go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like i love you.

i think i'm wierd. somehow i cant hide my feelings much.. like when i'm upset or sth.. the whole world knows. and when i'm happy. everyone also knows.. man.. and i cant keep my thoughts to myself. i have to tell someone at least. and then when i tell ppl. i always get misunderstood. and then it becomes awkward for everyone. why am i so wierd.. argh..

hmm schl's okay lar.. i guess i can only join CCA next week. cause i cant go tml.. got dance again.. we really need to practice man.. its scary.. oh.. rach goh came to schl today. for fun.. i bet she purposely came to tease everyone in schl cause NJ has enrichment week. no lessons.. man..

and i was thinking.. if i got a second chance... maybe i should have transferred back to CJ. maybe.

scrawled at 3/28/2006 07:35:00 PM

Monday, March 27, 2006

love's all abt loving and not expecting much in return.

hello. its me again.

man.. i seriously think i can only talk to ppl face to face. online, i get misunderstood. and then sth bad happens.. everytime also liddat.. just when i was over the moon.. i cant bring myself to forget you. nah-uh. if its worth the while its worth the wait. =D

sometimes its so easy to misunderstand. and when you misunderstand. dont run away. it'll only make things worse. listen. and maybe try to see it from my view. maybe tt'll make it all better. maybe. i just dont want us to drift any further. and dont just say okay and maybe and disappear. it works both ways. trust and patience is what i hope to learn from this. what abt you? yes you, reading this.

scrawled at 3/27/2006 09:28:00 PM

love is never selfish,
it never wants its way.

i guess AC's okay lar.. i mean i dont exactly fit in? BUT i guess i can live with it lar.. today had PE... wasnt tt bad.. only did running.. tml's double PE period. haha.. who knows whats instore??

yest caught theo performing.. i just have to say tt every other part tt theo wasnt in was incredibly boring. haha.. yeah well at least we caught him in action maybe it made the ticket more worthwhile.. OH but they confiscated my bag for no reason. maybe they thought there was a bomb inside. oh man.. oh wells.

i think i slept too late last night.. i was nodding off during phy today.. and i end at 4 tml!!! no fair! matt end at 1245 on wed's and thur's??? argh! my earliest's also like 150?

man.. we gotta hold tonnes of practices alr! we're so dead man.. the dance's in drips and drabs.. and i'm getting a lil worried. haha.. plus we got the drama parts.. man.. well.. all we can do is pray and commit it to HIM. tt it may touch lives. haha.. esp when i'm bringing so many ppl.. so scary.. haha.. i hope they really listen and not just come for THE CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN! *ahem*

absence really makes the heart grow fonder.
maybe.

scrawled at 3/27/2006 08:02:00 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

it takes 2 to clap. so nv give up.

schl's been find.. sure.. i guess the class wasnt as united as 1T12.. but i guess i can live with it.. being the lowest profile person in the schl. its okay. i really think i'll enjoy myself alot more in CJ BUT i donno if i'll get the academic results i want there.. MAN... but yeah.. lessons have started..i guess its okay.. dont think i got the best of teachers though..

this morn out 1st period was CHEM pract.. hmm after a super duper ultra tiring climb from 1st to 7th floor for lab(cannot use lift in 1st period after assembly) we stodd outside awkwardly waiting for the teacher(i really dont know any one in chem tutorial.. and i really think i'm outcasted) 15 mins ltr.. chem rep realised tt he hasnt bought the notes. so runs down and gets it.. before the teacher come up.. almost at the end of the 1st period.. chem rep comes up.. "i just saw the chem teacher in the canteen eating duck porridge. he forgot he got lessons but i just told him he's coming up" imagine the scene. we were standing outside the lap for 20 mins. waiting for the teacher only to realised he's enjoying porridge. and by the way. the teacher's pretty big sized.. as in he SERIOUSLY needs to turn to a side to enter from the door.. i'm serious.. MAN.. but i thyink he's okay lar..

i guess only time will tell..
meanwhile. dont condemn me. please? =D

scrawled at 3/23/2006 06:35:00 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

hola! i'm back! haha.. was at family camp the whole week. been a loonngg time since i last went for family camp! =D haha.. luke6:40 was the take-home verse for everyone and well i guess its true. we gotta 1st be well trained before we can even be like the teacher..
oh and the bus ride back yest was the best. never seen a lounge at the back of the bus before. haha.. jerm,tanya,nigel,yingsui,shiyun,me. we sat at the back lounge of the bus. so comfy man.. they could even lie down and sleep lar.. haha.. beats having the solid hard floor anytime man..

we're watching disney on ice later!! YAY!! =D=D haha.. i think the last time i went for sth like tt was like in primary schl?haha..

anyways i think things are getting better. and i think i've been in a better mood since family camp. =D haha.. i wonder why.. hmmm.. =D okay cya ard.

scrawled at 3/18/2006 01:52:00 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

HAPPIIEEEE! :D:D ahaha.... dont ask me why i just am. =D

today= sleep+1 phy lecture+sleep+burgerking+DATEmovie+MRT+church(dance)= one very tired boy.

haha. cant wait for camp.
and class bbq.
and disney on ice.

can totally wait for schl to start again on 20march with the new schl uniform.

LALALALALALA~~~ =D

scrawled at 3/10/2006 11:50:00 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

hmm.. sometimes you can just nv forget. and you just want it to continue forever.. man...
if only there really were such a thing as a time machine. i'd wind back time and keep playing it again and again. at the happiest point in our lives.

so AC's been okay i guess. got to know my OG.. and err.. basically just tried to be sociable. though i'm quite a failure.. oh wells.. hmm today we only went to 2 lectures. okay i went to maths with ivan and g and keith.. ivan was trying to steal keith from g. tt was quite funny.. man.. then ivan and i went for chem lect.. i think i shall consider going for a lil more lectures tml before crashing CJ..

hmm i guess i'll have to start getting used to AC.. we had half a mind to go back to CJ BUT... the only thing keeping me in AC's the better results they produce..man.. AC's to rich.. yest we had scavenger hunt. and the only person in the whole house tt had a pair of socks with holes was me pls. man.. and i'm still super broke.. oh i got the AC uniform.. i think its okay lar.. grr...

i still think of you..

scrawled at 3/08/2006 09:17:00 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

I'M BACK!!! AND I HAVNT BEEN SO HAPPY IN SO LONG!!!!! =D

haha... went out with arr. half the class today. had fun. watched rumour has it.. haha... RUMOUS HAS IT eh ness and zhen? hahaha.. so funny. i think we'll nv see them in the same light again arrr.. haha.. oh while we were walking ard marina we bumped into rach goh 4 times.. talk abt coincidence.. ahaha.. okay i'm super random today. dont ask me why cause i'm in SUCH A GOOT MOOD!!! LALALALA~ HAHA.. cya!

scrawled at 3/01/2006 09:51:00 PM