Sunday, May 28, 2006
i think i think too much. really someone should stop my mind from wondering too much. well i guess all i can do is wait and pray. maybe i'll get another chance. maybe.. man i hate it when life has too many maybe's...
hmm.. tagboard died on me.. okay.. hello to every one who tagged. and i'm okay lar rach. dont worry.. dont read too much into my posts.. i bet half the time my mind aint thinking straight when i blog. but then again maybe.. oh wells..
hmm toys'r'us has come up with the holiday catalogues. time to start writing the wish list.
Lord i see the things you ask of me,
faithfulness holiness and purity.
i love Your truth.
i long to show it to the world for you.
but Lord i need your help to understand,
the other person that i sometimes am.
and Lord i dont want to live a day that i cant say to You..
Lord whatever you ask,
i want to obey you.
to let my life beat like a servants heart.
Lord whatever you ask,
i know that you can give me wisdom,
and courage to equal the task.
Lord whatever you ask.
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1st week june hol's i got swim camp from mon-thurs. however, mon morn i got phy lessons then choir concert at nite then tue got GP lesson in the afternoon. then. on wed got CIP. i think the swim teacher's gonna tell me. then the next 2 weeks studying. with a break on the 8th and 9th. morn going with class to sentosa then coming back for guys night out. then back to studying.. last week's helping out in junior camp. i pray tt HE'll give me the strength.
hmmm.. maybe i'll get over this soon. maybe i wont. but this feeling really sucks. grr.. did i tell you how much i hate myself? okay now you know.
this is part 3 of the post. and its getting tiring.
this is keepin. she's kinda mad too. okay wait. most girls in my class are mad. hmmm. i have no idea why she was rumoured to be with me in the 1st place. but all tts been cleared now i guess. maybe tts cause she got a new target. not tt i was one in the 1st place but yeah maybe. hmmm well.. she's quite caring at times. but still tries to suan me at other times. she's smart. but lazy. infact everyone in class's smart except me. man. this is sucks. i should have gone to ite. oh wells. anyways she's gonna join er. volley ball i think. and become blacker. its a competition. keepin geyi and i. okay i think i'll lose. wonder who will win. stay tuned to find out.
this is kiku/jiayue. she has many many romantic links. too many to write. only augustine could have drawn it all out so detailed. she's from NCC(land) a sergeant if i may add. and how many ranks under me was tt? anyways. she knows many scandals abt NCC. which can easily fill up your boring 1hr 20min lessons with limkayyeeeeeeee.. oh but everyone can do away with her witty comments. too scary alr. and she draws wierd pictures of people she dont like or things tt amuse her during lessons.
this is leheng. she also talk alot. looks can be very deceiving. didnt look like a noisey one to me on first look. BUT she also knows too much. hmmm she's blur sometimes and always seen with fangling. hmm everyone calls her lele. i donno why. but it sounds wierd therefore i call her leheng. she's clarice's goot friend. and like all goot friends. they share the same characteristics. did i mention she's the perfect example of looks can be deceiving. oh she's in choir and therefore we're going there to see on mon. wow. wonderful voice. alto. maybe she'll get a solo part soon. so exciting! i also have no idea why i took this picture. its the only candid photo i could find.
this is mark. literally the voice of the class. he pokes fun at most bully-able teachers. but still respects them and doesnt go overboard. hmm.. he's a big and muscular rugger. ivan simply cant stand staying away from him. he's got small eyes. and i know his secret target! his face turns red when you start suanning him. only tanloong's face can compete with him man. oh and he's nosey too. okay but just not so obvious.
pei-rong. the girl who only allows you to take her side-view. she's nice too. can talk to her abt anything. okay but then again. looks like she's pretty sought after by many guys eh? hmmm.. she's always in school early. somehow she doesnt fall asleep during lessons. or at least i dont notice. wow. powerful eh?
tammie. i just had to use this picture to show the world what vanity means. sorry you look so devilish. hmm she self-declared tt she's my mom. obviously cannot make it. and notice i dont acknowledge it. she just declared it so she can try my wonderful baking skills. wait long long. did i mention she bullies me all the time. but she still loses when it comes to suanning looks like i'm the most powerful in class.. now to up my standard. and compete with other people.. hmmm.. tammie talks too much and is occasionally irritatng.. but sometimes its okay.
okay tts all i have to write on the class. dont worry if your name's not up there. when i get to know you better i'll write sth.
okay this is to carry on..
this is erwin. doesnt he just remind you of ernie from sesame street? he's from indo and can speak indonesian. BUT he's a chinese christian. he stays in a hostel with his brothers. he speaks funnily and sometimes teachers donno what he's talking abt. though he makes some goot points once in a while. keypoint: once in a while. it was his birthday yest. he's the treasurer of the class. therefore if anyone does not pay class fund. he'll knock on your door. spray paint and hang curry fish head on your door(pig's head expensive) and he organises many class thingys. thankyew. 
this is fangling. she talks too much. and she's the self-declared president of the ___ _____ fan club. a lil noisy and nosey. and her face's like a balloon. as the pictures shows. she's occasionally vain. and is pretty mad. someone has a thing for her. and obviously she doesnt reciprocate it. oh wells. we'll wait and see what becomes of the love story.
this is geyi. she's also nice. except she knows too much. she's ms super girl. with muscles like tyranosarus rex. and she has this hidden dis-taste for a certain someone not many ppl can see. but well since you have so much in common. maybe its just fated. oh wells. she's seldom with the class cause she has many lessons different from us. so she's kinda left out since the only lesson she shares are GP chinese and the other retarded lessons like PCCG. well but we'll try not to leave her out so much then..
tts the end of EFG. well if your name's not up dont worry.. either i havnt found a picture of you. or i got nth much to write abt.. maybe i'll write abt you soon.
since the class has shown such sudden interest in this lil blog of mine. i shall make everyone happy by introducing the class to ppl who read my blog. which is no one. okay if your name's left out. its not my fault. i just couldnt find a picture goot enough to show your wonderful face alright?
this is augustine. cool bowler. gay at times though as seen in the picture. hmmm he's a pretty nice guy to hang ard and all. watch him bowl yest man. i'll bet he'll thrash your behind inside out upside down. oh and he's often rumoured to be with another one in class. which you can find out later.
this is bang. or BrianANG cool name not. plus he's in air-rifle. ppl can cheer for him like go BANG go. with a pun inside. cool not. okay nvm. he tells lame jokes and studies geog. okay he doesnt study. he just takes geog. now he owes christine ng, 20 newspaper articles which i'm pretty sure he aint gonna do. wow. somehow ppl say he has a resemblence to a wolf. what do you think?
okay this is beatrix. she's a nice girl. nicer then the other girls in class anyways. plus she bowls too. and pretty goot. i think she bowls better then me please. oh did i mention tt she's from a well to do family? heh. i'll bet she could have bribed the security guard to let us out yest without the so long(5min) hold up at the gate. oh wells.
okay this is claire. my group leader and also the one who got the lowest score for O's.this is her TRYING to look intellectual. well. sometimes it works sometimes it doesnt. oh and she lives in a cave. she has lived a life deprived of TV for like the past 7 years. and now she's campaigning with the parents for one. who knows what will become of this?
okay this is the end of ABC. hang ard to either check what i have to say abt you. OR know more abt the class. depending on who you are.
though i could pride myself in battles won.
its pretty difficult to not take credit to yourself when things are going your way and blame everyone else when things arnt what you wish them to be.. but i guess i'll have to learn it the hard way.
for i've been blessed beyond measure,
and by His strength alone i overcome.
yeah i've led a pretty blessed life. born into a christian family, godly parents and teachers as an example. and friends that have brightened up my life esp tt special one. but i guess when the going gets though all i can say is tt by His strength and with his help, i'll pull through.
oh i could stop and count success like diamonds in my hand,
but those trophies could not equal,
to the grace by which i stand.
i always thought i was self righteous. and tt somehow i was better then the rest. but you know what? tt thought alone made me worse then the worst of them. i guess i really gotta change. not just focus on myself. but on others. and glorifying Him.
i cant do anything more. if just talking to you everyday is too much. its time like this when you hope to get reassured. but you know you wont get it. best friends respect the other's decisions. likewise i'll respect yours. i just pray we wont drift.
with much prayer and thought. you know what? i've decided to turn the problem into the solution. i'll work doubly hard. studies/sports/my walk all of them with HIM as the ultimate goal. with you as my secondary goal. mommy always said aim for it and work toward it. with him by my side and hopefully ours. i know i wont get disappointed again.
what a friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and grieve to bear.
what a privilege to carry,
everything to God in prayer.
oh i decided to bake an oreo cheesecake for shiyun and it turned out allrighty! at least even sui thought it was nice. which also means my baking skills not so bad.. maybe i should bake sth else.. see how.. BUT for now.. i'll see if i can find better use for my time..
so we were supposed to dance today at the church thingy BUT it got cancelled cause pastor's resting at home. everyone remember to pray for him alright? hmmm i'm seeing where i can get a cheap 2gb memory card for my PSP. anyone knows let me know k?
i think all the no-life's like me can set up a club man.. oh wells. hmm i shall go blading ltr. maybe......
hmm i guess what everyone needs is time.. flowers need time to bloom. fish need time to grow.. likewise. friendships need time to grow before they blossom in its full glory. i guess. tts where we start eh? from the beginning. the seed. =D
tmr's elections day.. i pray that we will have capable and commited leaders..theres YPG tml.. cya'll there..
i'm back! okay but no one reads my blog so how many ppl will actually bother? hmmm.. we did DISC profiling today.. and as expected i'm a high I/S but higher I.. oh wells. guess i havnt changed much.. personality at least.. but my C's rock bottom. so must work on it.. hmmm.. everyone's been getting new phones and all of a sudden i feel so jealous.. but well.. you cant always have everything.. and since last weekend was such a nice and happy one according to murphey's law.. the week day wont be overly fantastic.. but its okay. i must learn to be more patient and trusting okay whom i trying to kid.. ahaha.. why do i find it so hard to trust? i get overly suspicious when ppl dont tell me lil things. and my mind will wonder and soon i'll be too distracted to do anything else.. grr.. BUT its okay joel its all part of growing up. hmm you know wheni look back tk really didnt have many problems as compared to many other so called branded schools.. so maybe i'm a lil naive but hey its part of growing up eh? haha.. just dont get overly distracted and i'll be fine. =D
hmm.. swim was okay today.. only like half the J1's turned up.. which was okay lar. though my leg still cramps too often.. i must stretch more often and drink 100plus before i swim.. hmm obviously i'm not goot enough for nationals yet. but i'll train for it and maybe next yr.. maybe. i aint in much goot shape now so i'm working on it.. well He'll help me along the way and i pray will give me the strength to carry-on..
The batch. or whats left of it anyways.
Wouldn't it be nice if the world were Cadbury?
Riding in the car would be a tasty treat.
Changing gears would soon become a problem
Cadbury dairy milk is so good to eat
When you arrive at your destination,
You'll be greeted with an exclamation!
Wouldn't it be nice?
