its all just a merry-go-round

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

half way through the papers. 3 more to go.. i think i seriously should be studying BUT unfortunately i'm slacking.. i think JC life is tiring.. grandma's mad. she's trying to convince the world tt i'm skinny.. she forces me to eat even when i'm not hungry! she's a cheater.. she buys the food then says like if you dont eat then no one will eat then throw away then i got no choice to eat.. i hate it when ppl use this kinda tactics. cause i have no choice but to force myself to eat.. she always does tt. even when i tell her not to buy. grr.. cheater. i wonder why only girls can pull tt off.. guys can never pull tt trick off.

phy's driving me nuts. i want to try the godiva chocolate thingy!!! and i wanna watch superman! unfair...

doing nothing is slowly killing me.
man.
[edited] wheres everyone when you need someone to talk to...

where'd you go?
i missed you so.

scrawled at 6/28/2006 06:22:00 PM

Saturday, June 24, 2006

I'M BACCKKK!!!! heh.. jr camp ended yest on a high note. since qy and i were high from lack of sleep. now wasnt it so egg-citing!??! even though we were so egg-hausted.. but serving was eff-nough to keep us going for the week. =) okay did the drama's at nites. and i've never felt to stupid in my life man.. but oh well. all in goot fun eh? just hope the kid's enjoyed it.. hmm mon's the beginning of terms. and i really donno what to expect.

i might go chop some hair off later.. we'll see how.. i wanna watch superman next week! okay after terms.. and i wanna get a new game for my psp.. and download new songs! yay! thanks. :)

somehow the feel of the house's different. and everything has changed. somehow i feel more light hearted now.. dont ask me why. i just do.

scrawled at 6/24/2006 02:21:00 PM

Sunday, June 18, 2006

hmm been awhile since i last updated. and well. its the last week of the holiday. time flies man. and before you know it its back to schl. and straight into terms. hmm theres a tingling feeling inside me.. so many things going on this upcoming week.. hmmm one thing shiyun shared abt a week or so abt really struck me. and it was the problem the class had since the beginning of the holiday.
"but it you show partiality, you commit sin, and are convicted by the law as transgressors." - James 2:9
yeah i think every other person in class is probably guilty of it. i guess its pretty obvious how "impartial" our class is huh. i think many ppl face this problem. surely in life there are people you may not like. BUT just cause their different doesnt mean to ostracize them. and if we do tt we are commiting sin. yep. you learn sth new everyday huh..

hmm this week's really a hectic week. gotta go pack soon.. i'll update another time i guess.. =) dont miss me you ppl.

people always tell you to follow your heart.
what if my heart's divided?

scrawled at 6/18/2006 07:59:00 PM

Saturday, June 10, 2006

bond-bay =) (click to enlarge)

scrawled at 6/10/2006 12:06:00 AM

Friday, June 09, 2006

just came back from boy's nite out.. and yep it was fun.. hmm but 1st.. yest was xiuqi's birthday.. if your reading this.. happy birthday!

hmm.. so yest morn i went back to tk. okay actually we slacked ard and occasionally helped out.. it was supposed to be selection for the new posts for the sec3's.. SO.. just went ard tried to help but ended up playing more then helping.. hmm.. but it was great catching up with the guys once again.. man.. if only we could return back to the good old days.. okay so i was a ll late for boy's nite out.. say 5 mins? hmm we started the afternoon worship alr..
then pastor mitch talked abt character.. and the famous saying. "without character your nothing." hmm not sth totally new.. we learnt so much abt it before. but somehow you learn sth new everytime.. he defined character as the sth tt guys have when things dont go their way and theres nothing they can do abt it. hmmm. looks like i dont have much character to speak of eh? hmmm.. he quoted joseph.. esp when he turned down potipher's wife.. hmm plus he could willingly forgive those who did him wrong. talk abt charcter!.

after tt we had games in the basement. basically we played a round of baseball. then soccer. and more soccer.. and some primary school sprinting game all in good fun i must say.. but then it was washup folowed by dinner then evening session.

we talked abt brotherhood that can be formed.. pretty much the same as what pastor said a few years ago abt trees in a forest. BUT. i guess as a brotherhood its sorta closer.. treating everyone as your own brother. like the older ones and the younger ones.. hmm actually in the camp we were counted the older batch alr. looking out for the younger ones.. hmm 2 weeks time there will be the jr camp. i guess for the helpers tt will be helping out.. tt will be a true test. hmm ppl like char-les.. my bro.. maybe clement.. and even for myself. tt is a real test and application on how we can treat the younger ones as our brother's and sister's in Christ. not only tt but one another while serving. hmm.. serving together will probably be the best way to grow in brotherly love. having a sense of belonging to the church.. well i'm sure. tt if we play our notes right for this one. i guess we can slowly bring back ppl who stop coming to church. and slowly bring more. now tts what we call brother's. a genuine care for each other and each other's faith.

hmm then we went to watch remember the titans.. which ended ard 1230.. the show was really inspiring and all i guess. though it may not be so easy to apply. but its worth a try.. hmm then the mad soccer ppl went to b4 to play soccer.which is seriously madness.. hmm the rest of us were pretty tired.. or more or less lazy.. so we went to wash up and laze ard in the bunk.. talking nonsense.. joking ard.. catching up with the younger ones.. hmm.. and before we knew it it was almost 2 and the soccer ppl came up.. so they went to wash up and we went to the cafe to have so biscuits the one with the icings on top.. yeah so there was nick ivan gene and i. then after maybe 15 mins. we went back up.. off to bed. i was dead tired. then we woke up to mike's voice. heh... reavalley! ( donno how to spell ) fall in downstairs in 15 mins.. heh.. of course jokingly. hmm. so we went down to have breakfast it was prata and coco crunch.. gene and i took the toy's from the coco crunch then we went to attack the prata. hmm okay then was morning session.

hmm it was the hit topic. GIRLS. also known as the species no man can ever understand fully. cause we can understand them to a certain level. hmm.. chris said sth tt hit me. statistic's show tt after the first 2 years in a relationship. all physical attraction is lost.. BGR. a difficult topic huh. pastor mitch said tt one major problem is emotional entanglement. how true how true. i guess he was right. and when sth doesnt go your way your an emotional wreck. entanglement eh. hmm.. yeah.. and the worse thing.. if you try and undo the tangle too fast while your still pissed off on why it got tangled. it only gets worst. and both parties get frustrated. but at the same time. leaving it and casting it aside and it doesnt make things better.. and while the other is still entangled. i guess the other should help. hmm.. yeah.. but the moral of the story was to wait. yep.. hmm well. since i already waited so long for the one of my dreams whats waiting a lil more? but yeah. i still think the most important is a God fearing one. nothing can beat tt in importance..

all in all it was a great time well spent learning. if only we can have it more often... i can totally imagine the girls one alr.. one session on dressing and on BGR. and one more session.. heh.. BUT dont think they'll be playing a whole lotta soccer.. but yeah.

scrawled at 6/09/2006 08:10:00 PM

Monday, June 05, 2006

hmm its been awhile.. sat we went to sentosa for bond-bay.. fun time by the beach. THOUGH running ard palawan beach doing amazing race without slippers wasnt the best idea i had in a while.. so we played captain's ball. heh.. pretty fun.. though it was though running on sand.. hmm then was sunday.. and today.. starting to get on my study schedule.. i think i shall try to continue t.ck's method.. cause it sorta worked for me.. forcing me to study.. though sometimes my mind still wonders off and explores places.. its hard to forget yes?

err.. i really donno what i'm gonna do.. there are so many things going on at the same time and i cant be at 12837609216 places at the same time.. tml we're sunning mattresses then i needa study.. then theres class dinner.. then wed we might have dinner with the ol' gang.. then thurs and fri is boy's night out.. and fri evening we're going to watch X3.. sat morn we may have to go for PW.. and then theres next week.. please bear in mind tt theres is swim training every morning from tue-sat. and i'm missing practically every single training.. its just plain tiring..

hmm was listening to a song today... it was abt a couple who were so deeply in love tt they were ready to elope. BUT on the day.. the gal couldnt make it. and she left a sweet note at their meet-up place...
If you get there before i do,
don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long i'll be.
But i'm not gonna let you down,
darling wait and see.
And between now and then,
till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.love, me.
years later after they got married and became grandparents.. as the grandma passed away, the grandpa whispered the same thing back to her before she left for heaven. i guess you gotta say its kinda sweet and tingly no?

why.

scrawled at 6/05/2006 07:14:00 PM

Friday, June 02, 2006

darken the statements that are true to you. italicise the statements that you wish are true. leave the fibs alone.

i miss somebody right now.

i don't watch tv these days. (i wish i could stop watching TV)

i own lots of books.

i wear glasses or contact lenses.

i love to play video games. (cut down loads alr)

i've tried marijuana.(no drugs thankyou)

i have been in a threesome.

i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.

i believe honesty is usually the best policy.

i curse sometimes.

i have changed mentally a lot over the last year.(actually just this year)

i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (i'm not suicidal)

i'm TOTALLY smart. ( I WISH THIS WERE TRUE)

i've broken someone's bones. ( no bones in the nose right? )

i'm paranoid sometimes.( i know what your thinking.. SOMETIMES!?!?!?)

i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.(natural's best thankyou)

i need money right now.(saving up for the future. like maybe a driving license or studies)

i love sushi.(but not too much anyways)

i talk really, really fast.(i wont be able to understand myself)

i have long hair.

i have lost money in Las Vegas.

i have at least one sibling.

i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.

i couldn't survive without caller id.

i like the way i look. ( GOD MADE MEN IN HIS IMAGE. i'm okay with the way i look i guess)

i am usually pessimistic.

i have a lot of mood swings.

i have a hidden talent.(if its hidden no one will know eh?)

i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.

i have a lot of friends.

i am currently single.

i have pecked someone of the same sex. (EEEWWWEEEE GROSS)

i enjoy talking on the phone.(to some ppl at least)

i practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.

i love to shop. (but i can never decide)

enjoy window shopping.(depending on the company)

i would rather shop than eat.

i don't hate anyone.(learning not to)

i dislike them.( tts mean)

i'm a pretty good dancer.( I DANCE LIKE A HIPPO. though i keep getting arrowed for dances)

i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. ( fillial piety ppl ! filial piety!)

i have a cell phone.

i believe in God.

i watch mtv on a daily basis.

i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.(i dont even drink)

i've rejected someone before. (does rejecting ppl doing flag day count?)

i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.(pray and trust.)

i want to have children in the future.(doesnt almost everyone think so?)

i have changed a diaper before.

i've called the cops on a friend before.(i have good friends)

i'm not allergic to anything. (why am i allergic to homework and studies?)

i have a lot to learn.(lifelong learning)

i have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

i am shy around the opposite sex.(depends if i know them)

i have tried alcohol before.(very small amounts)

i have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.

i own the "South Park" movie.

i would die for my BEST friends.(i guess you could say tt to a certain extent)

i think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (singapore has too limited pizza stores)

i have used my sexuality to advance my career. (what sexuality?)

i love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.

halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

i watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.(just for fun though)

i have dated a close friend's ex.

i am happy at this moment!

i'm obsessed with guys.(aint gay pls.)

i am punk rockish.

i am preppy.

i study for tests most of the time.( if i did i wouldnt be failing)

i tie my shoelaces differently from anyone else i've ever met.

i can work on a car. ( tts how boring/claustrophobic)

i love my job.

i am comfortable with who i am right now.

i have more than just my ears pierced.(dont plan on piercing anything now.)

i walk barefoot whenever i can. ( depends on what i'm walking on.)

i have jumped off a bridge.

i love sea turtles.

i spend ridiculous money on makeup.

plan on achieving a major goal/dream.(maybe in the near future.)

i'm proficient in a musical instrument.(somewhat)

i worked at McDonald's restaurant.

i hate office jobs.

i love sci-fi movies. ( in the past maybe)

i think water rules.(sea sports!)

i went college out of state.

i like sausages.(reader's digest says sausages cause cancer.)

i love kisses.( who doesnt?)

i fall for the worst people. (if you fall for someone. you'll think she's the best.)

i adore bright colours. ( i refuse to go out with a group of guys who PLAN to wear all black)

i can't live without black eyeliner.( read kiku's blog!)

i don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.

i usually like covers better than originals.

i can pick things up with my toes.(if its not too big?)

i can't whistle.

i can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.

i have ridden/owned a horse. ( in aust when i was lil. i still remember she was called pepper. WOW EXCELLENT MEMORY EH?)

i still have every journal i've ever written in.

i can't stick to a diet. (explains why i'm so fat now.)

i talk in my sleep.( i know my bro does. along with all his not so secret secrets.)

i try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.(doesnt work.)

climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.(just dont try cacti)

i have jazz in my blood.

i wear a toe ring.(whatever for?)

i have a tattoo.

i can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.(learning not to. trying to be understanding)

i am a caffeine junkie.(dont know dont care)

i cosplay or know what cosplaying is.

i have been to over 15 conventions.

i will collect anything, the more nonsensical, the better.(when i was younger, till i realised it tok up alot of space)

i'm an artist.

i only clean my room when necessary. (when absolutely necessary.)<>

i like a person of the same sex.(aint gay)

i love being happy.(everyone loves being happy. BUT i'd rather make every one around me happy 1st. its much easier tt way.)

i am an adrenaline junkie.

scrawled at 6/02/2006 12:46:00 PM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

back from swim camp. must say its quite fun with the guys.. hmm.. those crazy nights laughing at random nonsense and all. hmm. but training was though.. last nite at 130 am. we went for a night walk/ghost hunting ard AC.. wasnt tt bad.. as in the places we went werent tt spooky or at least for me.. just tt they had scary stories.. esp when the sir's were telling stories at the MPH. tt was the one tt started scaring ppl.. oh wells we all know we're God's special ppl. so what have we to fear eh? hmm.. its been awhile since i've been this tired.. esp when your not leading any camps.. which brings me all the way back to sec 2 which was a pretty long time ago. hmm... it was physically very very draining.. and the worst part was when i let paranoia take over at nights which left me sleepless. and it wasnt just paranoia. it was the fear of losing.. hmm anyways the swim com's out alr. so we all know who's the next set of leaders eh?

anyways i think i should start studying soon.. like maybe tml. procrastination doesnt quite work. grr. i just wish i could take things out of my head. its darn difficult to forget. the roller coaster emotions really isnt sth everyone wants to go through. making it even worst to let go. and just disappearing aint working. at least a lil hope is better then none.

scrawled at 6/01/2006 04:01:00 PM